I suck at this

Its funny to look back at that list of things I wanted to accomplish over the summer. Bethany was nowhere on the list, and yet she is unquestionably the most important thing that has happened to me this summer, and probably my entire life. Maybe that sounds a bit quick being that we've only known each other for a month and a half, but I honestly feel like I have known her much longer, possibly most of my life. No, I don't think its scary, but its a bit odd in that I just never expected this to happen. I thought that I might eventually meet someone and that I would have to second guess whether or not it was meant to be. I never knew that not only would I never have to guess but that this would come to me very quickly and in the form of something that is basically knowledge, and that the clarity that this knowledge contained was as sure as fact. I literally struggled when I walked into my house a few nights ago and almost said flat out to my mom, before even a hello, "I'm going to marry her." (EDIT: No, we're not actually engaged. Do not make that misinterpretation) I wanted to say it, I was biting my tongue because I didn't want to have that conversation at midnight. I eventually did have that conversation with her, a day or two later, during the day, and I had expected her to just immediately tell me that we were moving too fast, but she didn't. I think she knew how serious I was. Anyway, I don't know who reads this, but if I assume everyone I'm friends with (and I'm sure you all don't) almost none of you have even met Bethany yet. But you will. She's helping me move in and will be down for a couple of days too. I dread what will happen after she leaves though. I mean, I'll see her not too long after, but I know that I will miss her. I love her. Part of me believes that its good though, that this will test the relationship, and I hope to God that we're stronger for it. Anyway, I'm sure I've gone on enough about it; I just thought it was time for an update.