Its almost here

The break is almost here. The semester has flown by. I love her more than ever. I'm so stressed out about finals. My God. This is the second time I've gone through multivar and I need to pass. And the math department's common time finals scare the hell out of me. I think math 1206 and math 1214 were collectively the worst testing experiences of my entire life. Those tests weren't just difficult, they were near impossible. Even professors agree. But I still have to pass. And I will, because that is what I do. I have never known myself to back down from a challenge, but then again, I have also never known a class that has beaten me down like this one has. Just when things seem easy, they aren't. Oh well. In a week it will be over. And then I will be home with Beth. And nothing can top that. There is a gnawing absence in my life right now. I know that I'm supposed to see her smiling every day, but I haven't been able to for so long. Thanksgiving break was great, but it was only a week. Thank God winter break is a whole month.

I've never valued or cherished anything or anyone as much as I do Bethany. I've never felt so much pressure and cared so much about making someone happy. I have worked over the most minute details of her christmas present to ensure that they are perfect, and even still, though I'm confident that she'll like it, I hope its good enough. But I know that christmas will be great. Because I'll be home with her. And to me, that's the best gift of all.