Wow, I suck

I haven't updated in forever. Since last semester even. Its lonely here. Nothing seems to mean as much being away from Beth. For the first month that I was here, I never had to go even two weeks without seeing her. This time I have to wait three. And I didn't see it coming either. When I got back to school, I thought to myself that it feels like I just out of winter break. But now its clearing up--its really just like school. I get tired out at the end of the fall semester, ready for the break, and when the break is over, I think that I'm ready for another semesterrr, but I'm still a little bit tired. So then it takes about a month and a half to wish for that winter break to return, and just at that point, spring break will be here. I need a week home with Bethany. I know that my weekends with her have been long, but its almost like that has made it harder. I miss her, and the time distance thing is killing me, and my motivation. But it will be ok. There are phones. Her voice makes my day. It really does. She makes my day more often than she knows. And soon I'll be home again, and then soon after that for the summer. I just can't wait. I mean, the classes that I'm taking are interesting, but I still wish I could just absorb the information through osmosis or something, get it over with so I can get on with things. Its not that I'm in a hurry to get out of here--I just can't wait to be home with her, for good. Before I got here last august, it seemed like the summer wouldn't end. Time seemed to slow down with her. It still does, I think. But then there was a sense of permenency that hasnt' existed since. I want that back. And even though the fact that moments with her are so few and far between that they are held so precious, ever more precious seems what comes after school. I love her, and I want more than anything for her to be happy. I hope this post made her smile, at least a little bit.