just 15 days

until I'm home thank GOD. What a great week it was though. What a great month awaits me after finals. I miss her so much. I thought it would be easier saying goodbye after a week, but it wasn't. In the end, it was harder, and I'm still feeling it, just as much as ever. I don't have the journal anymore, so I can't write in it, I have to write here instead. But its not the same, because only one other pair of eyes can read the other. Granted, I doubt anyone besides Beth reads this anymore anyway. Just 15 days. I love you.

I wish I could come up with clever headlines

I love her. I miss her more than I have ever missed anyone, and it hurts more everyday. Every semester I have spent here, I have gotten burned out at the end of the semester and been ready to go home. But this semester is different. I'm not fed up with classes or homework. I'm tired of not being able to see her every day. Thank God for Christmas break. Oh its going to be great. We're going to see each other on sunday, and then I'll go home for over a week next friday (thursday?) and then finals and then home for a month. And oh what a month it will be. No classes. Possible employment. But the ability to see Beth every day. There is no greater Christmas present. Just the fact that I get to see that smile every day when I'm home is enough to make it amazing. She's amazing, whether she believes it or not. No matter how many fights we have, in the end they're all stupid and pointless and wrong, and they don't change a thing. I don't think anything can. Because I love her. And thats stronger than any argument.